I spend a lot of time wondering if I’ve made the right choice. I worry about this especially in this season of transition and change in my life. I don’t often question the big things, but I spend a ton of time wondering if I made the right choice on the little things. Should I have changed this, should I have gone to that, should I…. fill in the blank.
A friend of mine and I were talking about this phenomenon and wondering why this was the case in the little things, but not the big things. For example, I know that I’m supposed to sell my house and move to Centerville. I know I’m called to be the lead pastor at Centerville UMC. I don’t doubt that at all. But when it comes to changing the bulletin at the church – well, I live in constant fear that someone is going to come in and yell at me for making all these “drastic” changes.
The truth is that I’ve come to the realization that I don’t sweat the big decisions in my life because I turn them over to God. If it is going to be something that will have a lasting impact, I have no problems turning it over to God. I trust God to lead me in that area. I haven’t quite seemed to master this yet with the little things in my life.
I’m becoming more and more convinced that as someone who strives to be more like Christ then the only thing I can do is the best I can. If I’m doing the best I can then I don’t ever have to worry about the right choice or the wrong choice. I can simply say, “It was my absolute best.” After that there is nothing else I can give.